Well, I no longer feel in control. I don’t know what to do. Feeling hopeless, and very frustrated due to my lack of knowledge concerning all of the pregnancy complications that could very well happen to me now.
The doctor wants me to go to the hospital tonight. I said no, and I scheduled another baby check-up two days from now, but I am wondering if I made the right decision. I went in for another routine urine sample, blood pressure check, weight check, cervical exam, non-stress test, and ultrasound on baby Faith. Everything looks great except that my blood pressure was 140/83.
My BP is going back up a bit, but everything else was fine. I weigh 166. Urine sample came back fine. Ultrasound was great. I got a cute little picture of Faith’s ear (which, by the way, looks just like Aaron’s ear.) I have attached earlobes, and Aaron has detached earlobes. Faith has Daddy’s earlobes. Big surprise. She is Daddy’s little girl, like I’ve always said :)
Although the baby is not in distress, the placenta is still working perfect, and my tests are all ok … I’m being told that my blood pressure is still a concern, and that as more time passes it can just get worse. It sounds like my inducement is for preventative reasons, instead of a medical emergency. I’m indecisive on what to do, and I’m extremely upset about this. I’m feeling defeated already, and labor hasn’t even begun.
Part of me thinks I should just go to the hospital tonight because if I wait 2 more days for the next baby check-up only to find out that I’m still not progressing, then I’ve wasted 2 days stressing over this and most likely having my blood pressure rise even more due to anxiety.
I’m just sitting here. Please help me pray for answers.